OMG im think i affected totally !!!

After a wk of A3 shift,im totally drain out... Dun say abt the calls,suddenly i feel so empty in my mind... I trying to separate my thoughts into diff sections so tat i can focus during work... If nt i guess my tone of voice will sure affect my calls...
Sometimes i will be quiet & dun talk to my collegues even im waiting 4 calls to come in... But i juz cant hide cos they will ask wat happen 2 me ? Haiz accordin to my character,i feel im so fake behavin this way... I think im gonna explore soon le... Can anyone tell me wat 2 do?

Haiz... This few days im tryin V hard to absorb lots of stuffs...

(To face AQ stuffs bravely,Real hope tat she will be fine soon & end the sufferings forever)
(To push away those past sad memories from floating up to my mind & affect my emotions strongly)
(Stop myself from letting my tears fall so easily)
(To control my thoughts & nt these affect my workin performance)

I really hope everything will goes towards a smoother path each day...